Thursday, May 05, 2011

瞬间,的沉默

最近的我,感觉上 静了很多,不晓得为什么..想静就静,想吵就吵.突然间,头脑一片空白,不知道 不了解 自己在想什么,自己要的是什么.安静,真的令我想很多.想着想着 笑了,因为我想到,在我身边的她他们;想着想着 沉默了,再为那件事而烦恼吗? 我,真的不知道.感觉上,很多东西烦,实际上又好像没有..时间一天一天的过,我 越来越不知所措.身边的她他们,一次一次的鼓励,一次一次的坚强撑着过去.曾经,泪撒满脸,泪珠没断过,从来没试过在别人面前这样的狼狈.睡枕湿了,草莓湿了,熊湿了,被单也湿了.还好,无论什么事还有祂.我知道,祂在看着我.我笑,我哭,祂都在.


I'm down since saturday,becasue..remember that is music practise,pastor David told aunty arlyn about baptize course.Not sure what they are talking about,sitting queit far from them,look at them,silence.Few days ago,message hosea ask him about this,keep on say im pity,make me even down.But i know he not intentionally,its ok.

I know God had talked to my mother.that day,dont know where is my COURAGE come from,I ask my mum about this.I ask her:mummy,actually baba dont like me go to church right? my mum answer:last time lar,but now no already,he didnt say anything also.I asked again:if i baptize,can or not? and my mum answer:you want baptized mie? then i didnt say anything.my mum continue,she dont looks happy,answer me with face no expression, she say:dont know,erm..can gua? i was like,hmmn,thanks Lord,because at lease my mother not telling me CANNOT .problem is my father now only,i think God need to spend long time to talk with HIM.SIGH.

today my karen and daniel back from honeymoon already.Just finish tuition then see a missed call,is sweet karot.So warm and lovely.I'm ok,because not ok also have to be ok,so i think I'm ok.=) smile,thanks for your call my dear.it is enough for me to stand strong,big encourage for me.Hehe,today im happy ;) so so so happy,tomorow will be more happy =)

EXAM is just around the corner,next tuesday.Alright,just try my best.Three weeks,just three weeks only,then i can enjoy kaw kaw.after exam,is YOUTH CAMP..woohoo,cant wait for it.The time during exams always fly hyper-fast,have to study hard hard now.Gambate TAM SIN YIN!

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